A Tribute To My Mummy

There are so many stories to tell about my mum, so many events over the course of her life that stand out but here are some of the little things I will miss and cherish the most:

- Buying us little amy dolls whenever she went to Aba to buy her goods

- When she cut my short into a skirt and made me wear it to a birthday party 

- Taking us to watch twilight because we were obsessed with it

- Boping to Justin Bieber's Baby because I was obsessed with it

- Sending each other's clothes to buy on Instagram

- Sending each other selfies

- Face time calls talking about nothing and everything

- Sending each other hairstyles and planning our next hair styles (Also read, going to the salon to make my hair when I was little)

- Getting pedicures together

- Being her handbag for the day and just following her for all her waka

- Sending each other natural tricks, health tips, food ideas and exercises

- Asking me if I've prayed about a situation 

- Never forgetting a thing I tell her and following up to ask about it

- Hours of gisting

- Waking her up in the middle of the night when I'm scared or had a nightmare, and her staying with me till I fell asleep

- Sharing our plans and dreams with each other

- Her calling me Orempe the girl

- Holding my hand through life.

And here is a  list of all the things I want to thank my mummy for:

- Thank you for knowing me, taking the time to get to know me as a person and loving me for it.

- Thank you for trusting me at an early age

- Thank you for trusting my decisions and choices

- Thank you for teaching me about God, Life and Love

- Thank you for being a beacon of hope

- Thank you for my face, it looks like yours and so I love it more

- Thank you for my voice that sometimes sounds like yours

- Thank you for believing in me, more than I believed in myself

- Thank you for holding me through the dark times and promising me the sun

- Thank you for being my Queen and making me your princess

- Thank you for being the best mother a girl could have

- Thank you for being my best friend

- But most of all, thank you for being you.

Mummy, you are the light of my life and loosing you has brought so much darkness. All that I am and all I will ever be is because of you. You meant everything to me and I can't believe that you are gone.

Your love was all I needed to get through each day and every day since you left has been a nightmare. From the unsolicited advise to the never ending questions when all I want is to see your face and hear your voice.
All that I am is you. What can I do? What can I say? Where can I go? I need you even more now than ever but you are not here.

I'm sorry for the pain you went through these last months and I'm sorry that I couldn't take the pain away, I'm sorry that my prayers were not answered and that there was nothing I could do to convince God.

But I am grateful for the time we got to spend together. The time we shared these past few months, although there were the hardest months of my life, it was also the most special time in my life. I go to spend time caring for you, bathing you, feeding you, doing physiotherapy, laughing with you, reading the bible, singing hyms, singing praises and praying. I love you and I know the pain of never seeing you again will never go away but I will always hold on to our memories and strive to be just like you.

I love you my mummy, until we meet again.

- Orempe the Girl.